Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Finding the Blessing in Every Day


This week, as we watch the moon narrow to a sliver, many of us are aware that Rosh Hodesh Elul, the beginning of the month before Rosh Hashanah, will fall on Tuesday and Wednesday. The month of Elul marks the end of summer. It also calls us to prepare for the New Year. With the sounding of the shofar each morning of Elul, we begin the season of repentance.

In light of this seasonal transition, this week’s portion, Re’eh, invites us to begin to reflect on the meaning of our lives.

“See, I set before you today a blessing and a curse.”  (Deut.11:26)

The word hayom can mean this day, meaning the very day that Moses was speaking to the Children of Israel. It can also mean today, a reminder that every single day we make the choice between blessing and curse.

This phrase is echoed a few weeks later, just prior to Rosh Hashanah in the portion Nitzavim, where we read:

“See, I set before you today life and goodness, death and hardship” (Deut.30:15) and “I have set before you blessing and curse; choose life that you and your offspring may live.” (Deut. 30:19)

In case we need a nudge, the Torah urges us to choose life, not death, blessing and not curse.

These verses divide our world into two stark choices, blessing and curse, life and death, goodness and hardship. Yet that is not the world we inhabit. Our choices are not always so clear. Our values sometimes conflict. What appears to be a blessing may turn into a curse, and vice versa.

The Vilna Gaon, understanding that these dilemmas can paralyze us, taught that the answer lies in the verse itself: “I have set before you.” He teaches that if we wonder “’How am I to know which path is good and which is not?’ The answer is ‘before you.’” Our problem is often that we do not take the time to truly examine which path to take. Instead we blaze ahead out of desire or urgency or fear, without really choosing at all. The answer is “before you”: in front of your eyes, if you take the time to look.

Torah is an important guide, says the Vilna Gaon. As Rabbi Akiva taught, study leads to action. Through practice we can learn to distinguish when we are following a path for our own self-interest and when we have chosen what is truly right. Through experience, and paying attention to our own inner thoughts, we can develop the sensitivity to recognize the good path, the path of blessing.

The portion continues with the admonition, “blessing, if you obey the commandments…and curse, if you do not obey.” However this translation does not accurately reflect the nuance of the Hebrew. Blessing occurs, not if, but ka’asher/when you obey. Curses come im/if you do not obey. The commentators explain that the blessing is part of the experience, when you do the mitzvah, while the curse comes as a result of our disobedience, if you disobey.

If the blessing is part of the experience itself, we might wonder what constitutes the blessing?

According to Rabbi Levi Yitzhak of Berdichev,

“even now in your lifetimes, when you fulfill the commandments of the Creator you will receive a blessing in this world. Scripture then goes on to say what that blessing is as the verse continues, ‘when you obey.’ This very fact, that you obey Me and do My mitzvot, this itself will be a blessing, since there is no greater delight than this. Thus, the reward for a mitzvah is the mitzvah itself.” (quoted in A Partner inHoliness, by Rabbi Jonathan Slater) Rather than do mitzvot to receive some compensation, whether in this life or in the World to Come, Levi Yitzhak is inviting us to open our eyes to the blessing, and even the joy, embedded in the act itself.

Many of us know that feeling that comes from doing what is right. I’ve witnessed this truth while working with students for their bar or bat mitzvah. If they struggle with the Hebrew, or prefer to play basketball rather than practice their chanting, if they find the preparation confusing or boring, all of that changes on the day of their ceremony. While leading the congregation on the bimah, most students suddenly realize the blessing that comes from all of their effort. While they thought they were doing it for the party or the gifts, they understand in their souls that the greatest blessing was in achieving this moment.

Though we may resist following orders, though we may be reluctant to stick our necks out, though the task may seem burdensome or tedious, when we get down to it, doing what is right feels good. The blessing can be found in that very moment, when we act.

One word that repeats throughout this portion may give us another clue to where to find the blessing. In Re’eh, the Torah instructs us seven times: v’samachta / you will rejoice. (Deut. 12:7,12,18, 14:26, 16:11,14, 15) In each instance, we have a particular mitzvah to fulfill, and the Torah insists that it be done with joy. Likewise, Psalm 100 encourages us to “serve the Holy One with joy.”
 
I know people who cheerfully do whatever is asked of them. They get pleasure from helping others. Without complaint and with a smile, they do what needs to be done. These individuals are my inspiration. Here, the Torah encourages us to do what we are called to do with joy. In that act, we will find the blessing.

As we enter into the month of Elul on our journey toward Rosh Hashanah and Yom Kippur, may we choose blessing, today and every day, and do it with joy.
 
published in The Jewish Advocate, August 22, 2014

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